Sometimes i think the physical pain i have to go through is incomparable to those other people have to overcome. That's why i didn't want to have myself checked. I believe there isn't anything much that they can do, honestly. It's just a minor fracture a few years back, i genuinely believe my body have fixed that part of me. My back has been a chore lately. Though i've been trying to keep a good posture but the pain keeps coming back - thank God for pain killers. Other than that, i've just been having some flu and fever. But of course, i've been better these few days.
Recently, i've been thinking a lot about what i want to pursue after my diploma; that is if i graduate (crosses fingers and hopes for the best). I would love to go into a course that i've desired for so long, but i honestly don't think i'm cut out for it. Maybe it's in my blood, but - there's always a 'but', heh - i just don't think i have enough talent and experience to put out a significant portfolio. Then again, where's the good in taking no risks? I've thought about other alternatives that i can fall back on, however, it's still regarding the same course. Nothing much that i can do other than my personal interests right?
But that's not the only thought in mind. The actual one is whether i should continue studying straight after this, or do i search for a job? Secondly, whatever i choose, do i attend to it part time or full time?
Ugh, just when you think you can rest, these questions linger in your mind.
Written with love; 11:27 pm
