How could i not tell she wants to retire so bad? Honestly, i would love to work and study at the same time, but she knows i won't be able to cope. But i know i eventually will, she just doesn't want to trouble me. I get what she meant - while she can support me, she will, but she's been doing the same job since she was 16 till now. What more can i ask for, she has commitment!
Unfortunately, guilt has taken over and i feel so very bad for living off my mum at 19. Seriously, it's like i am barely independent. I would love to not ask for money but she just keeps wanting me to rather ask her, than support myself. Come to think of it, i'm starting to doubt my 3 year plans, and dedicate it to studies.
Written with love; 11:45 am
