I am more than grateful that i am blessed. To know that everyone around me loves me back, the feeling of being loved is, indescribable. But God could you please give me some peace of mind. This heart aches every single time that thought crosses my mind. Why won't i let it go? I've tried so hard, and i need your help. Just please, help me let this go. I can't take it anymore.
Apart from that, i have more important things to take note of, my studies, my health, my religion and my family. God, i could not bear to go through this alone. I tear as i type this out because it aches. This heart aches so bad. I don't trust enough, i don't depend on people enough. I think i could do it all by myself but no. I know i can't. But i refuse depend on people, not because i don't believe in them. But i don't want to burden them.
I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so confused. I'm egoistic, i'm mean and i'm just too harsh. I'm all of that, to others and most importantly, myself. What i want? Just one thing God, a peace of mind. I beg you, from the bottom of my heart, i'm begging you. I am in need of serenity.
Love,
Emy
Written with love; 10:25 pm
