Childhood dreams.
I have everything to prove i'm capable of something so much more. Its just whether you are willing to take it in. I've tried for the umpteenth time to make it happen, make it work. But no. Nothing seems to please you. I've tried so hard to take care of them. Or at least let them have some faith in me. It's not that i can't, they just don't think i can. It will be unbelievable for me to go jogging, shop or even head to the library alone. Because i just never did. Once i do, nobody believes. No, please not let me be dependant on anyone. I really want to make it alone.It's not that i can't, i just have this insecurity. It's plowed in my mind that i can never do anything alone. I just want to break out because i know that one day it will be possible. I want to shop alone, make a living, travel by myself, study overseas, whatever. Just something, to prove my point. You make me want to walk on broken glass to prove my point. I can't shake this feeling off me, it's overpowering my emotions. Everything now seems unfair, i can't make it through life's biggest challenge - certainty. No, it's not tearing me apart. It's wearing me down, just trying to make it through a day without thinking so much about my life. What am i to do without you? Will i ever make it through? Because right now, i can never voice out my point that's credible. I feel powerless. I feel blank. I don't know what i'm here for anyway.
xoxo Double xo.
Labels: Thoughts in short.
Written with love; 10:20 pm
