Emy Shamimi
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
Petal after petal.The seasons brought cold into me.
It's not thrilling any longer. It's not going to be just another new lifestyle. It's just never going to be the same. But i guess it's time to get away from my past and continue with life. To get away and socialise. The words i've been saying under 'Never will i...' are infact coming true. Should i realise my mistakes, life would be, so much more meaningful.
Honey, friends with benefits don't bring you any where close to what love is. It's pulls you deeper to heartache and guilt. So why dare try? Acquire the ability to love yourself before you start loving others. That's one thing i have to work on. Even the personality test agreed. I've been smiling so much, i didn't know whether or not i was really sincere. Somethings are meant to be reflected and judged, not blindly agreed. Rather, now what do i do? Agree or disagree? More thought-suction sessions. I've been in so much trouble and i have so much work to do. Now this? Seriously, it's stressful. Even chocolate doesn't keep me happy - ironic much.
Well, i have to take it positively then. Like, a time for me to start anew. From scratch, from dirt and from zilch. Hope this time, i really won't regret this mistake. Plus, i hope mum changes her mind about this, it's great for her of course, but not for me. Then again, what's great for her should be best for me. Or is it ... ? Obviously, we have to pick one of the choices. It's okay, we'll settle this sooner or later. Apparently, school has been much of a getaway. Still think it's better, with assignments piling up, i barely had time to think things through.
And i got into Marketing, i think i'm appealing for Business though, i had a change of thought.
What do you exactly want from me?
Bye souls, love you~ xoxo Double xo.
Written with love; 8:16 pm