Young at heart, but never too late for age.However much i've been excited for Hari Raya, it didn't go as well as planned. You see, destiny plays its part, while we just have to determine whether or not it'll be good by our own choices. Opinionated minds just tend to go a little to further down when it comes to doing the right thing. Like the pros and cons, if you may ever get the chance to weigh it, possibly every big sin has much of a pro than con. That's when you start coming back to your roots - religion.Hari Raya went absolutely fine, for the first two days. Everything was perfect - i might say. People coming in and out, having forgiven sins, they tend to be carrying a lighter burden. You may ask, how? Don't you feel the same way when you fought with your brother for whatever reason then ended up severing ties? Well to see one being forgiven and not repetitively doing it again, is satisfying. I noticed many these days have changed - for the better - but the society just doesn't make an effort to accept these fellow citizens. Like as if they'd never change once they start. As mentioned in last years' posts, people remember you for the wrongs you did than the rights you changed. Possibly nothing in this world isn't materialistic. Even if you say you are, you tend to try to please people with something you own, something you can show-off. So do i, i do say so because i used to buy the in-trend technology but then i started to become a weird old jinx and destroy every gadjet i own. (Yes, that bad.) Even if you're not materialistic, you try so hard to make a good impression and start your own 'scheme' of being accepted. This may just be your door to - the underworld. It may be good, for certain reasons, but once you're in, only way out, is up. The more 'ranking' you get, the more people look up to you. There you go - you've made an impression, but to the wrong company. Years after years, then it smacked you right in your face - what have you done to your future. What i am portraying may be rude, but you have to grow up. Seriously, whatever you've done with your life may seem a bliss now, but you know it's only temporary. Go back to your roots, where you can come to your senses that you are getting old. Life's a short path and hereafter is, in fact, eternal. Misjudge me wherever you can, but you know i'm right. I won't give up on you, but instead you give up on yourself. Prioritise your life like it really meant something to you, you wouldn't want to be hunted down like an animal, do you? Throw what's wrong and dig up whatever's left that's best for you - and your family. Today wasn't good, it made me notice certain things that just disgusts me. Alone time was on books, i've been reading so much, this brain of mine tends to think a lil' bit too much. Deeper than usual, factual and more in depth. Plus point to experiences and first-hand scenes. Certain issues are meant to be explained, but i'd rather not know. Somebody pinch me, is this a dream or reality?Am i living my life or someone else's?Why am i going through things that i don't even imagine could've happened to me?An odd mix of guilt and innocence.
Written with love; 8:27 pm
