Emy Shamimi
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Thursday, May 14, 2009
Pretence is one big act.
Nothing comes easy, especially trust. We see people talking, screaming, but are they even telling the truth? Most probably, we're used, sometimes even lied to. Nonetheless, we're oblivious to what truly seems to be told. Mishaps happen and we need to recover, preventing it from recurring. But, why say when nothing has changed? Not a single move taken to rake up whats true. Honestly, i don't see the need of faking, lying. But why even create trust and honesty? I'm sorry but i trusted and loved so much, i made you come back. Silly enough, just for two days. Why i doubt? This. This misunderstanding, this unappreciative, minor mishaps, that none wants to take the blame. I knew this would happen. I tried, again and again to ask for forgiveness, seek for acceptance. It's like i'm the desperate one. Seems that nothing's change and what they say was true: I am the dumbest girl on earth. Nevertheless, i won't regret what i did. I promised myself to accept you as it is before, and well, if it happens again, there goes our chance. Our last opportunity to show the real, true, deep feelings for each other. Truthfully, that fateful day was the day i've been awaiting for so long. Love deepens, when you're not there. I stay shut, unknown to anyone that deep inside, it faded. Then again,now it deepens, and everything's back to normal. Throwing it away once again? Should've have known, whatever it is, i still love you, so very much. Whether or not you appreciate, care or even love me back, just remember that i will always miss and love you. Sorry, love.
Skipped CSA and MicroEcon lect today. Haven't been fine lately, very ill. No love, not swine flu, i haven't been anywhere further than Orchard Road. Anyway, do you mind calling instead of messaging? My phone's really down and i've got no idea what you sms-ed me. Neither do i know what i'm typing if i messaged you. If you received, good for you. Haha, so i better get off to bed now. Got to go check up later. Oh, and don't come near me, it may be contagious. Probably even deadly. Okay, hell no, i wouldn't want t die so early. Blablabla, i've got to do my assignments too! Remind me i've still got a project that i haven't even touch. Oh and, next week is someone's birthday. Hmm. :D
Farahin, if you see this, please tag or something.
We need to talk. I'm scaring myself with everything.
I need a late night movie date with you ah! <3 style="font-size:85%;">Two days MC.
Bye souls, love you. Losing faith in you.
Written with love; 4:25 pm