Leaving the precious and loved.Holidays are near and i'm all bubbly about it. I will have great fun during Chinese New Year because i'm intending to celebrate it. I've had a whole month of study programmes in school, everyday and only come home around 5 pm. Homeworks - tons and i feel like i'm way behind the class and i don't know who to turn to. Plus, i won't be looking forward to my birthday though, because it's the first week of the O-levels. Still thinking where to go to de-stress and relax. But nevertheless, my days are already getting worse. With today not being able to celebrate Amirah's (UPOS) advanced birthday or even go out with cousins to NAFA, i don't feel okay after a week of breaking down. Having to make sacrifices for this whole month, is already killing me. I know that just recently i was bragging about not going out on Saturdays, but come on! I had a week of bad days and i didn't complain to anyone. I thought it was going to be much better the day after next. But it seems like nothing is getting any better. I don't even think that i can make it through O-levels now. I don't have enough faith, no more encouragement - that seems to never end. I think i'll leave it to God to lead my life. I just can't help making any more wrong decisions in my life. Sorry.
Written with love; 12:32 pm
