Everything is not going on well. And I don't need any help.
I DON'T NEED AN HELP, WHATEVER.I just need comfort.Never think you're always right. Keeping quiet doesn't make any difference. Shutting her up also makes no difference. Even swearing upon her, the sentence also ended with a hope that it will happen. You think she would not rebel? If you trigger her, it will be worse. Bet on it. Ever realise that all these made me the victim. Oh, i just realised, I have always been the place where you vent anger, right? Shouts ended up to me. You can even say that you would take care as long as you live?No, i don't think so. Leaving this house, thinking you are so religious and that everything you say is right? Yuck, self disgrace. I don't think you make any good if i see you around here. You just tear my eardrums. Stop pushing me like as if I'm your slave. And don't ever think that everyone is pushing you, it's me. If you talk to me, i won't reply. The same goes to her and me. Saying that she didn't have any knowledge about being considerate. Wouldn't it all lead to you? You are supposed to give her the encouragement? And now, when she wants to go, what did you do? Nothing, no fucking encouragement. And you think she's gonna put you out there in the heat and rain? She wouldn't have the guts to do it, never, she swears. Why wouldn't the others take you in- didn't you think of this question, ever? It's because they think you're making such a nuisance-every one of them thinks that way. Come on! You've got to be realistic! She even said that she would rather die. Cant you see that she's been sacrificing for you all this time? I ask her something-why can't we change this and that. It just leads to you not liking it, and that she wants you to be happy with the way it is. If it was me, i would already say that i have to change some things and that everything can't all go just the way you want it. She's not making it such a big fuss, you are. Things isn't going to get any better she has much more problems than i do. She has to do it alone. How about you? You have a lot of people around you. She only has me. What am i going to do? I have my problems too. It is my job to take care of her and all. You think she doesn't need you? She needs you a whole lot. You are her everything, you know. You are somehow her life! It's bring me nothing if i just keep on bragging about you. It will make no difference. You will still think that she was bad, but she loves you and you don't give a shit. Yes, you don't give a shit about her!Fucked up life.Bring me to heaven someday, i may get along with the dead well.
Written with love; 11:28 am
