its been a while since i see tok going to afghan to buy
berita harian and his food stuffs.
being in the same house with him, i know almost his everymove.
there is a few diaries that kak intan kept.
and still we are searching for more.
maybe he kept some dirty little secrets like we do.

at times he would sit on the dining table and just count
his money or just put an alarm clock, and 3 mins later eat another medicine.
i think in total he has to eat 7 tablets.
only in the afternoon.

then each and everyday before i go to school he will go to
me or just call on me to give me a two dollar note.
and we hide it from my mum because she wants me to save it
but she doesnt know that i needed more than $3 a day.
and each and everytime i go out he will ask me whether
i have money,and whether if its enough for my whole expenses.

when he was able to walk,
he would lay down on the sofa and take a nap.
there is this particular sit for him in the kitchen where
he counts his money and eats his daily meals.

and oh ya! i still remember the times when i was in the toilet and he would say this

"biler aku nak masok toilet die ade, biler die nak masok toilet aku ade.ade ade je arr."

then i would be laughing alone in the toilet like a pontianak on the lose.hah.

he was in his twenties when its was the japanese occupation.
i still remember what he told me..
it was early this year..he told me that kampong siglap
was peaceful because the japanese only checked on them.
and he was a teacher,and he even taught the pupils in japan.
he sometimes even speak to me in japan.
which i dont understand at all.(:

times with him i treasure most.
even the slightest thought.
the moments i miss him,
is each and everyday,missing his jokes,
laughter and of course his presence.

when he was sick,and bedridden,
he still has a bit of tickle bones.
he still has his sense of humour,
and of course still laugh at jokes.

i miss when he presses the bell
and calls out my mums name.
and each and every night i hear my maid say,

"nak ape tok,malam malam jual ais krim."
"tak, tok nak teman, nanti besok tok kasi ais krim."
"renie nak yang chocolate."
"dua dolar mane?"

and even in the evening i would hear that.

yesterday i slept at his old bed.
i guess it would be totally different this Raya.
with his two wardrobes filled with new clothes,
and still ten clothes not have a chance to wear,
we could go on a sale for his clothes,
its still in good condition.

emy.